Dabbl

Good morning. Today is day 10 of the Coronavirus quarantine and I am officially bored out of my mind. Yesterday I got to the point of really establishing a plan for today and to get after it because it’s been so boring. I think I laid in bed all day outside of doing 300 pushups. I didn’t go outside once and it drives me crazy to see me this lazy. I want to explore this laziness. This quarantine really shows me the lack of motivation I have. Is it lack of motivation or lack of guidance? Maybe both. I do strive under leadership, so maybe I just need to become a better leader for myself. Starting my day off wrong makes it much harder to get back on track. I found it is better to get everything done in the beginning of the day. For example, I went on a run last week after staying in bed for a while and I had very little energy. However, I went on a run this weekend fairly early in the day and I had way more energy. Things in motion want to stay in motion. I just wish it was as easy for me to lock in mentally to do a task that requires some brainwork as it is to physically workout. Working out has always been easy for me and I wonder why that is. Why is it easy for me and not for others? Is it because I don’t look at it as a chore? It’s essentially a part of my life and don’t think twice about it. Maybe that’s the way it needs to be with other things I want to get done but don’t necessarily have the courage to do so, like start an online business or start a hobby that doesn’t require my body, but rather my mind. On a motivational video of Joe Rogan yesterday he labels it as be a professional. In other words, this is what you do. You are this person that works out no matter what. For amateurs, fads and interests come and go. However for professionals, they sit down and do the work consistently on a day to day basis to the point where it isn’t a task anymore. It starts to become just a part of everyday life like exercise is for me.

              What do I want to become consistent with? The answer is obvious to me. I want an online business, but don’t know what to sell. What can I consistently do to come up with ideas? I can write down ideas and come up with new ideas. If I write on a consistent basis, that would have so many benefits. So boom. Write daily. Ideas, thoughts, observations, etc. It gets the juices moving around in my head and that’s important. Now, do I bring back my website? Technically I still have it. But do I want people knowing what I’m doing? I think I will. It could be a good exercise to have myself being put out there. Yes, you know what? I will bring back the website.

              When I wrote down tasks for today, I put down “read”. Now reading is something I’ve gone back and forth with and never really stuck it out. And I don’t think I will be something that I consistently do to be honest. I’d rather write then read. But since today I’m doing no social media or YouTube or Netflix, it wouldn’t hurt to fill in the gaps in the day. Maybe this experience shows me that no social media or YouTube or Netflix is the way to go. My brain is very accustomed to receiving crap that comes from these. There is a little something satisfying about coming home from work and putting this stuff on the screen just so your brain can go “blahhh”. Is that nature or nurture? My guess it is the latter. My brain is so accustomed to going blahh that it craves it at times. However, when it gets too much blahh, I can feel it big time, but I don’t necessarily do anything about it since it gets more difficult to motivate myself the more blahh I pump into it. As a result, it gets me frustrated because I see how lazy I’ve been and know this is not who I want to be but it’s comfortable since it’s so familiar with me. I need to train myself to get rid of the blahh.

              Here’s my list of things that I want to get done for today (or not do today):

1. No Netflix, YouTube, or social media until 8pm (aka no blahh)
2. Meditate
3. Go on walk
4. Read and write
5. Prepare for Thursday’s work meeting
6. Draw a picture for Stefan
7. Workout
8. Stretch

And that’s my day today. If I accomplish all these things then my mind should be pretty clear. It will also force me to confront my boredom. There’s no way I am going to lay in bed and do nothing whereas I would normally look at Instagram or YouTube. This boredom would be too much to handle and force me to get up and to do something to stimulate my brain. Ok, that’s enough for now. Let’s see how it goes.